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Harper Talks Show 2 — Ann Portmann (.mp3)
Ann Portmann had a 20-year career as a financial planner and accountant before she discovered a different calling in nursing. Her experience in the Harper College nursing program started her on the path to earning hospice, palliative nurse, and wound care certifications. She works as the care team manager at JourneyCare Barrington and is a 2020 Harper College Distinguished Alumni. Join Ann Portmann and Assistant Professor of Communication Arts Brian Shelton as they discuss career leaps, hospice care, and more topics on Harper Talks.
Harper Talks: The Harper Alumni Podcast
Show 2: Ann Portmann — Transcript
[00:00:00.150] - Brian Shelton
I'm Brian Shelton, and you are listening to Harper Talks, a co-production of Harper
College Alumni Relations and WHCM Harper radio.
[00:00:09.540] - Brian Shelton
The road to a community college can come from many directions while the vast majority
of students come straight from their high school graduation. Some students come from
a long, successful career and are looking for a change. And Portman had a 20 year
career as a financial planner and accountant before she discovered a different calling
in nursing today, as she works as the care team manager for JourneyCare Barrington.
While many of us do not like to think about end of life care and decisions, these
are issues we all have to deal with and helps train Harper nursing students so that
they can be better prepared to care for their patients and joined me for the Harper
Talks podcast over Zom.
[00:00:51.720] - Brian Shelton
Good morning and welcome to Harper Talks.
[00:00:53.340] - Ann Portmann
How are you today? I'm doing well, thank you.
[00:00:55.390] - Brian Shelton
How are you? I am absolutely wonderful. It is winter day when we're recording this
and so I'm not enjoying the cold.
[00:01:03.870] - Ann Portmann
It was spring yesterday!
[00:01:03.870] - Brian Shelton
So yesterday it was spring yesterday. That's right. So you are a Harper College Distinguished
Alumni. And so I know a lot about you, but we want our listeners to know about you
as well. And I was interested. You had a two decade career as a financial planner
and accountant, and then you gave that up for a totally different career.
[00:01:27.060] - Brian Shelton
And I'm always fascinated by people who make that kind of leap because I've considered
it several times in my life. I was just wondering how how did you come to that decision?
[00:01:37.060] - Ann Portmann
It was truly a calling. There was not one particular event, not nothing happened.
My company was going through some changes. There were talks of reorganization. And
I got to thinking, what what am I going to do if my job is eliminated? Where do I
want to be? Where do I see myself? And I saw myself as a hospice nurse and I started
thinking about it and talking about it and looking into it. And then my company didn't
make any changes and my job was not impacted.
[00:02:08.770] - Ann Portmann
However, my heart and my brain and my all of me was impacted. And I decided that even
though I still had a job, I was going to leave that job behind myself and head down
the path of becoming a hospice nurse.
[00:02:22.840] - Brian Shelton
Well, that's I mean, it's quite a bold leap.
[00:02:25.630] - Ann Portmann
So it was a big leap. Yes.
[00:02:29.530] - Brian Shelton
So once the choice was made to pursue nursing, I mean, you had a lot of different
options being here in the northwest suburbs of Illinois.
[00:02:37.000] - Brian Shelton
How did you get the Harper College?
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Harper College had such an outstanding and still does have such an outstanding reputation
for being a strong nursing school. I live in Palatine. The price was very reasonable
for becoming a nurse. And I decided to pursue the associate's degree in nursing because
I had two and a half years to complete the program before my own kids started going
to college. So I had to put my head down and get through this so that I could be out
of college so that they could go to college.
[00:03:07.160] - Ann Portmann
So Harper was a very easy decision and I was fortunate to have the grades and get
the test results so that I was able to get into the outstanding program that Harper
does have.
[00:03:20.900] - Brian Shelton
So were you able to finish before your kids went to college or where you overlapping?
[00:03:24.380] - Ann Portmann
I graduated in December of 2012 and then my son graduated from high school in May
of 2013 and went
on to college.
[00:03:30.530] - Brian Shelton
That's wild
[00:03:30.530] - Ann Portmann
So I was gainfully employed by the time he left for college.
[00:03:37.670] - Brian Shelton
Well, what did he think of that? What did you think of Mom going back to college?
[00:03:42.380] - Ann Portmann
It was interesting that both of my children were in junior high high school getting
ready to go to college, trying to figure out what they wanted to be for the rest of
their life. So I think it was set a good example for them that, yes, you're 18 years
old now, starting to plan your life, but life is a journey, so you follow it along.
[00:04:00.770] - Ann Portmann
And just because you choose to do something right now as an eighteen year old when
you're 40, you maybe will choose to do something else. So I think I like to think
I hope I was an inspiration to them, that life truly is a journey full of twists and
turns. And you just along for the ride?
[00:04:15.260] - Brian Shelton
Well, I think that's a very important conversation to have with our own kids, but
also with our students at a place like Harper College.
[00:04:22.280] - Brian Shelton
And then, you know what you think you want to do right now at 18 or 19 years old might
not be what you want to do when you're 40 or 45 or wherever you are. I mean, I know
personally I have had a crisis of faith and what I'm doing over the years. Right.
And I have looked at other avenues and have stayed in education because it's an exciting
field. But I see people all the time who reach mid career and then all of a sudden
they're like, oh, my goodness, I don't want to do this anymore.
[00:04:50.870] - Brian Shelton
What do I do?
[00:04:51.500] - Ann Portmann
So that was me. And I was very fortunate. My family was very supportive. We were able
to make it work financially. And this is just such a calling. And I'm so passionate
about what I do right now. And I'm so grateful that I followed that calling. I mean,
I could have stayed where I was at. I didn't have to make a change, but it was just
such a strong sense of I needed to do that and I listened and here I am.
[00:05:16.460] - Brian Shelton
That's great. So, you know, I'm faculty at Harper College and have been around nursing
faculty for for a very long time.
[00:05:24.860] - Brian Shelton
I hear the stories of the rigor and the discipline required to be in the nursing program.
What was the hardest part for you in that?
[00:05:35.410] - Ann Portmann
Instructors are phenomenal, and they do they want to they want the Harper nursing
graduates to represent the strength of the Harper nursing program, and they push you
to as far as you can be pushed and in a good way, because nursing, like most careers,
I mean, we have to be critical thinkers. We have to think on our feet.
[00:05:57.920] - Ann Portmann
We have to be able to make decisions. We have to learn when to rely on others and
when you need to figure it out yourself and they push you hard. But I'm so grateful
for that, because when I graduated from Harper, I knew that I had the skills that
I needed to become a successful nurse. I wasn't there yet. I still had a lot of learning
to do. But they built the foundation to help me build a foundation with so much strength
that I felt very confident going into the working world that I could do it.
[00:06:27.990] - Brian Shelton
What was the fun part about the nursing program, I mean, there has to be some joy.
[00:06:32.070] - Ann Portmann
Oh, absolutely. Some days it's hard to find. But truly the most fun part of the nursing
curriculum was that capstone experience the last eight weeks. And I've told them over
the years that you really need to emphasize that more because you work so hard for
the first three and a half semesters. And then at the very end, you get to do this
capstone, you get to practice being a nurse.
[00:06:53.740] - Ann Portmann
And it's such a phenomenal experience to know that all those hours and days of studying
and just repeating and repeating and repeating that when you go out and do that capstone,
that they did prepare you for where you're supposed to be going and. Best experience
was that part, and then while you're going to the program is the camaraderie that
you have with the other students. I mean, I was fortunate when I was in the nursing
program, there were many other students who are a little bit older, like me, who were
juggling, having kids and being a mom and working part time and being a student.
[00:07:26.310] - Ann Portmann
And we just had a really good camaraderie, a really good relationship. And to be able
to lean on each other throughout the process is very important.
[00:07:34.260] - Brian Shelton
Yeah, I've noticed that there are a lot of people who have later in life chosen to
go into nursing.
[00:07:41.700] - Brian Shelton
And the cynic in me says that it's a career that maybe makes a very reasonable wage,
a very reasonable
salary.
[00:07:52.320] - Brian Shelton
Right. For the work and the education that you need. But it seems like there has to
be so much more to that. Right. You're not just going into it for the money. Right.
[00:07:59.430] - Ann Portmann
Absolutely not.
[00:07:59.430] - Brian Shelton
Why do you think big career change and go to that or people like maybe in the 30s
or 40s switch into that?
[00:08:05.640] - Ann Portmann
And I think actually some people take a pay cut, they've been in the corporate rat
race where they're sitting at a computer, they're they're they're sitting at a computer.
They're they just don't feel like that they're contributing to society the way that
maybe they want to. So I know in my case, like being a mom, my kids were getting older.
I'm just by nature a caretaker. I want to do something beneficial that can help somebody
else. And so by going into career changing careers and going to nursing, it was a
pay cut.
[00:08:39.180] - Ann Portmann
I have less vacation time. I have less flexibility, but my heart is so much more full.
So I think that's why a lot of people that I got to know in the nursing program were
thinking the same along the same lines. It wasn't it's harder. I mean, I had a corporate
job. I could take holidays off. I could take all kinds of stuff off. And now all of
a sudden I have to work holidays. Sometimes I had to work overnights and I have to
work
weekends.
[00:09:05.640] - Ann Portmann
So it it's a more physically and sometimes emotionally draining experience for less
money, but so worth it.
[00:09:13.500] - Brian Shelton
Yeah.
[00:09:13.770] - Brian Shelton
I think from the financial and the calling standpoint, you know, education is very
similar because so many of us work in fields where we could obviously make significantly
higher sums of money working in our profession rather than teaching our profession.
But we find that the education portion of it is so much more fulfilling. So, yeah,
I totally identify with that.
[00:09:35.410] - Brian Shelton
So you mentioned earlier that you were called to do nursing and this was one of the
to do hospice care nursing, and that was one of the questions that I had planned on
asking you about. So you say it's a calling, but what made you choose that line of
work? I mean, it's a very specialized area.
[00:09:51.450] - Ann Portmann
It is very specialized. I honestly. Don't know exactly why I chose hospice nursing,
it was a calling many years ago in the early 80s, my mom worked for a hospice agency
when hospice was in its infancy in the country. But I didn't have any specific I didn't
have anything specific. It was just it was just a calling. That's what I'm supposed
to be doing.
[00:10:15.900] - Brian Shelton
OK, so for our listeners who don't really know or don't fully understand what hospice
care is, could you explain that for us?
[00:10:23.040] - Ann Portmann
Sure, I'd love to. Hospice care is when a person is either newly diagnosed with the
disease where there's no there's no curative treatments available, or maybe somebody's
been battling an illness for many, many years and the curative treatments are no longer
working. So the doctors say there's nothing else that we can do to help improve your
disease process. And within the next six months, we would expect that you will die
from this disease. That's where hospice care comes in.
[00:10:55.590] - Ann Portmann
So you switch from trying to make things better, trying to fix things to trying to
provide comfort for the person's final days. Whether you're truly talking about days,
hours, days, weeks, months, hospice, nursing, hospice care provides comfort for that
time period. One of the most amazing things about hospice care is it's truly holistic.
So within your hospice team, you've got a nurse, you've got a physician, you've got
a social worker, you've got a nurse's aide, you've got a chaplain, you've got music
panatology.
[00:11:28.170] - Ann Portmann
You have massage therapy, you have art therapy. At the center of that care team is
the patients surrounding that patient? Is that patient's community, the family, the
spouse, the parents, the siblings, the friends, the patients who live in nursing homes,
the nursing home staff, hospice care provides care to that whole the whole group,
that whole circle that that person is hospice does not do anything to hasten death.
Hospice doesn't do anything to prolong life.
[00:12:01.050] - Ann Portmann
Hospice provides care until your natural days have come to an end. A truly holistic
just taking care of the person, mind, body and soul. It's just an amazing thing
[00:12:14.340] - Brian Shelton
For our listeners. You know, I can see. And because we're talking over Zoom. But you
can I can see that she's very emotional and very caring when she talks about the subject
is definitely something that is an important part of your life. But I guess I'll ask
what might seem like an obvious question to you, but maybe do you find the work sad?
I mean, how does one cope with being surrounded by death and dying every day?
[00:12:37.650] - Ann Portmann
And that's a question that many, many people have. So a great question and. Yes, do
I cry at work? Absolutely. Do I laugh at work? Absolutely. And everything in between
the people that work in hospice, for all of us, it's some sort of accounting. I have
a friend who says that you don't choose hospice. Hospice chooses you. So those of
us that are working here, we need to be here because we've been blessed with the ability
to take what could be very sad and help the families we focus on living so.
[00:13:14.300] - Ann Portmann
We're going to help you live until you die, so I've been involved in different things,
like helping a patient get to a Cubs game, helping a patient get to her granddaughter's
wedding, taking a patient out for breakfast one last time, honoring somebody with
retirement ceremony right before they die. I work in the Barrington Care Center and
the inpatient unit and even on the unit, we've had weddings, we've had baptisms, we
are able to help the families, not always accept the end of life is near for their
loved one, but to celebrate that person's life so that, yes, they're going to be sad.
[00:13:53.980] - Ann Portmann
And we tell people all the time, no matter how prepared you are, it's OK to be sad
because you've lost that person here, but you have their spirit with them. So we do
things like we make thumb print pendants for with grandma and the young kids are we'll
do hand hand molds. We just try to help the families celebrate the person's life as
that life is coming to an end.
[00:14:19.590] - Brian Shelton
It sounds like I mean, you have something I don't have. I, I couldn't do that.
[00:14:24.070] - Ann Portmann
But I have to be here. This is this is where I have to be. This is this this is where
I need to be. So, yes, there are some days where I cry really hard because somebody
is hurting. I take comfort in knowing that we're making the patient as comfortable
as we can and we're doing everything we can to support that person's circle. But we're
humans. We cry, we laugh. We used to hug. We can't hug with covid now, but.
[00:14:48.940] - Brian Shelton
Right.
[00:14:49.420] - Brian Shelton
Well, you know, speaking of that is very, very topical. I mean, how has that affected
what you do? Our family still able to come and visit there? Well, I mean, there are
relatives, right?
[00:15:00.520] - Brian Shelton
You're not at hospice unless you're dying, right.
[00:15:02.230] - Ann Portmann
So correct. Yes, especially in the care center. So we we have strict we check people
in our receptionists checks for symptoms. We check people's temperatures. But we have
throughout this whole thing, have been able to allow visitors because nobody should
die alone. So for patients who have the patients have COVID, but we have to limit
the visitors or the visitors safety. But we are still being able to allow families
and loved ones to come and be with their person as they approach their final hours.
[00:15:37.990] - Ann Portmann
And that's just so important to me. And we all work together as a team to make sure
we can keep that option open. The hospitals aren't letting visitors in, but throughout
all of this, at our care centers, we have made sure that people are not dying alone.
[00:15:51.730] - Brian Shelton
Oh see. That's really interesting because everything that you everything that I've
read and seen in the news is about family not being able to visit their loved ones
as they were dying. But you're saying that's in the hospitals but not at hospice.
[00:16:02.740] - Brian Shelton
And that's a you can I guess maybe a weird question. Can you can you move? Someone
was covered from the hospital to a hospice care center so that they can then be with
their loved ones. Is that a possibility?
[00:16:14.140] - Ann Portmann
It is. And we've done that many times over this past six or eight months. We've had
people coming from the hospitals to be here, especially in the spring when things
were so locked down. We would get patients here who'd been in a nursing home and then
the hospital, and then they came here for their final days and their family hadn't
seen them for three months. And we were able to provide them with the avenue so that
they could spend some time with their loved ones before they died and say their goodbyes.
[00:16:40.540] - Ann Portmann
Very important.
[00:16:42.100] - Brian Shelton
That's that's fascinating. How are you and your staff protecting yourselves?
[00:16:48.040] - Ann Portmann
We have all the we we have an amazing team who monitors the CDC and IDPH and we have
the most up to date guidelines on what to do with the PPE. We have adequate PPE so
we can keep our staff protected according to what the CDC recommends.
[00:17:04.120] - Brian Shelton
That's interesting.
[00:17:05.560] - Brian Shelton
So you are very involved with the Harper nursing program. Still, you're helping to
train that next generation of nurses. So I guess my question is, what drives you to
give back in that way? I mean, you could walk away, you've got your degree, you've
got your job. You don't need the help.
[00:17:20.210] - Ann Portmann
Right. I love to be able to talk to the nursing students. I love to go back. Lisa
Ayers had had me going for the third semester after they take their final exam. I
get to go in and spend about an hour teaching them about hospice nursing. And it's
just I think it's very powerful for the students to hear firsthand what hospice nursing
is all about. And the nursing program, rightfully so, focuses on improving. What can
you do to help improve the health of a patient?
[00:17:53.020] - Ann Portmann
What can you do to help get them stronger? And there are some situations that that's
not possible. So I'm able to come in and teach them about when when you can't help
somebody get stronger, how can you still help them? How can you help them to understand
where they're at? How can you have these difficult conversations with family members?
How can you speak to the physicians about suggesting hospice care for the patients
and to build a comfort to just try to plant the seed for these nursing students, that
sometimes that's the best option and it's not a bad option.
[00:18:26.350] - Ann Portmann
I mean, that's one thing that's certain for all of us is that we're all going to die.
And when we've done everything we can to help somebody get stronger or better. And
we can't then instead of feeling defeated, you have this other tool that you can offer
to the families or suggest to the physician. So it's a grea opportunity to teach them
to have this tool in your back pocket as you're helping a patient to get stronger
when they can't. Here's something else you can recommend.
[00:18:50.710] - Ann Portmann
So I love talking to the students. I love having the students here in the care center.
The instructors at Harper helped to build such a strong foundation for me. I just
love to be able to go back and share with their current students what they provided
to me.
[00:19:05.460] - Brian Shelton
That's awesome. Have you been able to successfully recruit any Harper students into
your field?
[00:19:09.930] - Ann Portmann
We have. I'm one of my nurses at the care center right now as a Harper grad, and we've
had a few other students that were here that work for JourneyCare now. So it's awesome.
It's not for everybody. But when you have that in your heart, it's great to be able
to bring them in here.
[00:19:23.580] - Brian Shelton
Fantastic. So what did it mean to you to be nominated and to win a Distinguished Alumni
Award from Harper College? What was that like?
[00:19:32.920] - Ann Portmann
That was such an honor and just being part of the program and reading, listening to
the other distinguished alums and just such an honor. I'm kind of speechless. I just
felt very honored.
[00:19:44.910] - Brian Shelton
That's great. Well, as we wrap up here today, I want to tell you I really appreciate
chatting with you, but I was curious what advice you would have for any student who
is thinking about going to college,particularly at a community college like Harper.
What would you what would you tell them to do?
[00:19:59.070] - Ann Portmann
Definitely pursue it. Harper has many wonderful programs. It's a great way to kick
off a career. Or if you are thinking about a second career, it's a great place. The
faculty are the staff. They're so approachable. And I know there's a lot of resources
to help you figure out what you want to do if you don't have such a strong calling
like I did. But be brave, be strong, see what's out there, see what else you can do.
[00:20:27.840] - Brian Shelton
Well, and I want to thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to talk
to us today and share your remarkable story with our students and alumni and other
listeners. And hopefully maybe they'll inspire someone to go into nursing or hospice
care as well. Thank you so much.
[00:20:43.380] - Ann Portmann
I hope so. Thank you.
[00:20:44.460] - Brian Shelton
Harper Talks is a co-production of Harper College Alumni Relations and WHCM Harper
Radio. Our show is produced by Shannon Hynes. Our technical producer is Eric Bonilla
Sanchez. Our theme music was created by Aidan Cashman. I'm Brian Shelton. Thanks for
listening.